which way should i go?

Igt tak the team outing yang i told u.. ok.. cancel because semua org tak nak pegi.
X mas tahun ni nice. last week jumaat g pavi nak bli hadiah for jue's wedding b4 that g tgk pokok xmas. sana ade snow every 8pm sampai 26 dec 2009. nice nice. haha.
the next day sabtu went to saloon buat rambut..haha first time i choose that color. ya whatever bila lagi u want to feel good abt yourself. the next day tu g jue's wedding and decide to cancel all plan. because everybody ade benda nak buat, not like me no friend and ada byk masa nak jalan2.
takde pic because i dont have camera that time. malas la.


Something sgt2 mengejut terjadi. 2 days ago. something happen to my friend. and it's because dia terlalu berharap sgt dgn lelaki itu. lelaki tu bersalah tapi jgn lupa my friend, kau salah juga. you must be very strong right now. congrats u did the right thing. u decide to face your problem, u told your parent. damn u are so lucky u still have someone to slapped you and make you come back to planet earth, come back to reality. i hope you realize right now that u r so very lucky. look what he did to you after what u've done for him.


I've decided. nak jadi very very strong. laugh kalau nak laugh. but i dont care anymore. i will try my very best to do it! will survive everything.


oh ya. hamim baru bangun, dia kata dia mimpi pergi perang. must be because that game yang dia beli semalam.


i want to go to work. i want to go to work. a lot of things for me to do there!
i'm crazy. bila kerja i want cuti, bila cuti i want kerja! roslin u r crap!
make me feel good. make me feel good.

New Housemate?

Yay. da dapat hsemate baru. Fuhh lega!
Settle dgn si mangkuk ayun ambik duit org pastu melarikan diri.
Bole settle dgn landlord hutang yang 6 bulan tak bayar2 pasal si mangkuk ayun tu melarikan diri.

Penat la hari ni. naik bas kul 6.10 to Kelana Jaya 6.50 sampai KJ trus amik lrt so 7.10 dah terpacak depan office. siap sempat bli nasik lemak RM1.30 lagi. balik lagi like crazy. sapa suh lambat2 kat office tu. dah 4.45 tu trus cabut je la. sempat naik bas dari KJ 5.10. kalau dah samapi kat KJ pon pukul 5.30 amik bas kol 5.50 je la. tu pon 6.10 baru nak jalan! kul 7 baru sampai rumah. Penatnya!!!!!!!

Penat penat pon masak vege spaghetti la pulak. dah kenyang tak penat rasanya. baik tido awal malam ni. Like pukul 10pm dah tido. hahahahaha!

oh dgr bunyi guruh..meaning nak hujan kan..
syoknya tido. bole melupakan semua s**t yang berlaku.
Hujan wash away my all my sadnes pls.

Anyone Need Attention? I have lots to give!

Tadi g assessment. Passing mark 75%. Mampu ke shortlisted?
Don't care, dah cuba the best walaupun tak prepare apa2 ( camne nak prepare? tell me! tell me!).

Dah seminggu pindah Menara TM. Penat letih stress dgn macam2 benda. Duit habis beli minyak je.
Nasib baik early of Nov keje pagi, so boleh la naik bas pegi balik keje. save minyak, tol n parking fee yang mahal giler, paling murah RM5 per entry. Makan roti la nampaknya sampai next gaji (atau sampai bila2?) Dah la nak bersimpan byk benda insurance kereta, kenduri, service kereta. So no more visit to shopping mall ok!

Nak attention! Nak attention! Ah shit jgn harap la ade org nak kasi kau attention. Igt diri tu princess ke? Aku ade byk lagi benda nak bagi attention! cthnya: bagi attaention kat org lain because kau tu tak menarik. ok? blah blah. sini happy thought je may enter.

Berusaha Roslin berusaha, u can do it! Just shut up and ignore/hide your feeling! jgn membebel byk! buat keje lebih! concentrate! jgn berfikir! jgn mengada ngada! just ignore setan2 yang ade dekat2 situ! argh! tak sabar nak tgk kau blah s**l!

oh lupa need to do research pasal team outing. this is like our last team outing. Duit outing for year 2009 pon belum claim lagi. tak mungkin lepaskan peluang.
Jue's wedding on 6 dec, lepas tu trus g activity. So pikir pikir nak makan buffet, tapi pikir balik wedding da makan lunch, so decide nak g desert.

Hmm...ape yang best for RM seorang? kalau untuk desert RM 30 per head bole mewah. hihi! haha! ok!................................blur.........................argh tak tahu nak g mana? ( Roslin! PM jenis ape kau ni? last minute baru nak buat keje?! marah marah!) Anyone help me! need suggestion!

ting ting ting.........got it! haha! haagen dazs! Special Fondue @ RM63.90 for 2-3 pax! masa Jue's hen pun gedik gedik fondue. time tu just the 5 of us je pegi. so skrg i make it compulsory for evryone to go because semua org OFF on that day! Ok decided! jgn lupa bawak camera! Ha!

Erm..nak kemas rumah because rumah ni macam shit! toilet pon macam shit semua nak tggu aku cuci. sampah kau pon aku kene kutip ke setan. ish ish.. look what you make me do... Ha! Ckp macam seorang yang irresponsible. ko pon sama! tak malu ke? malu....tunduk. diam. tidur.
Ah shut up! siapa nak percaya kau?

BTW, anyone need single room in Cyberjaya? Kalau ade let me know. Byr je deposit bole trus masuk for December. No booking booking! email me ok. aku trus call kau pastu. bole?
tapi diharap kau pembersih org nya, tolong cuci bilik mandi sekali sekala, tak merokok, tak minum2, dan tak balik rumah mabuk2. oh lagi satu, tak bawak balik kawan2 yang suka usik barang hsemate.

Lagi sebulan rambut akan panjang giler.. Giler ke? Ape style nak buat? biarkan curly macam curly fries ke? Nak rebonding lurus macam spaghetti ke? org rambut panjang selalu buat style ape ek? ni kene research lagi ni.

Akhir kata:
I boring dan broke. Ade org nak kawan ngan I.. Pls pls pls...
kalau tak mau pon takkpelah, kalau baca this post tolong comment and suggest ek..
I byk issue.

Friends

hari ni aku cuti. sehari je so tak dapat g mana sgt.
stress la. pasal kerja and friends.
pasal kerja i hope i can do it. really. i know my kerja sgt stress.
call centre mana yang tak stress. tapi deep in my heart, i like this job.

haih.

my friends. apa jadi? i know i ignore byk org since my college yrs lagi.
mostly was because they hurt me. tapi ade juga yang tak.
and still i ignore jugak.
konon2 emosi sgt & nak lari and start new.
i ignore all my friend in the past walaupun yang tak bersalah tu.
yes! i do have new friends after that. tapi i restrict myself not to be particularly close to someone. takut di backstab from behind. i end up with no best friend until now.

lately i tried to contact evryone yang i still bole terima jadi friend. contact semua yg tak besalah jugak. konon jadi more forgiven and nak put all the past behind.
ade yang marah kot. but ade yang ok ok.
haha..
but ade yang reply msg but suddenly stop.
risau nya.. mana ya aku buat salah.
maybe this is how they felt when i stop contacting them last time.
padan muka!

Cinta Anugerah Tuhan?

indah kan? sesuatu yang dipanggil cinta tu.
apa makna ada semuanya tanpa ada yang nak dikongsi dgn.
jgn tamak. seronokkah buat semuanya sendirian.
sampai bila2?

tak paham kah.
tak tahu macam mana nak explain lagi.
mungkin nanti nanti paham lah.
bila sampai masa
harap tuhan kuatkan kita semua
mengharungi hari hari yang tak pasti.

Pantai Bagan Lalang

Tadi g pantai. lama tak g pantai.
sempat tgk matahari hilang. cantik.
kebetulan tadi ada pesta. tapi tak singgah.
Just g makan ikan with hamim.
dah lama tak makan ikan yang fresh.
sedap sedap.
in future hope dapat pergi lagi.

A pleasant surprise is in store for you

That's my fortune message for today.
Should i be happy?
Should i be excited?
or maybe feel better?
Hmm.. I'm not sure.
Most of the time, i hate surprises.
It's make me feel bad about myself, it's make me weak.
I lost my confident, and everything that i thought I did right, seems to be ALL wrong.
What usually happen after that is a lot of swearing and hating.
Not to anyone else but me.
What to do, after all I have only have myself to blame.
Right? Wrong? Why?
Haih....I'm confuse....let's discuss it over a cup of expensive tea which I don't need at all?
Anyone? No one?
I'll go alone.