Bzzztttt

Taken from the poms that i seldom meet but when we do, we go crazy like hell.

i wanted to talk about feeling today. noooo.... not about love, as i don't have any of those. about HATE, which i have plenty. i was so easy for me to hate than to love and i can hate indefinitely. i blamed it on the star. seriously.

i was born on 24 oct, which i'm considered a scorpio. not that i'm a believer. they say, scorpio hold grudge, so do i. the trigger point can be anything. even the simplest thing. worst, i tends to show what i feel and sometimes, i even say it out loud. let just say, i tends to have more "enemies" than allies.
my "enemies" are the ones that i despised. i won't talk, look or even have any slightest interest in them. my hate grows with time. it grown till i felt nothing, and we became stranger once again.


Hurm..this sound like someone.
 

it is much much much better here. ★

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Sahur 4th Aug 2012

someone that i used to know date.

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i don't know i just feel sad to max now.

senyum je lebih tapi dalam hati meraung raung like crazy.

i get what i need but not what i want. 

i should be grateful but im not.

tak habis2 with prob. no money broke hell.

then prob with people around me. 

then bila i decided to ignore all that shit.

masalah lain timbul and i cant even talk to anyone about it.

i dont know how to explain myself.

i really need to talk to someone about this but no one is available.

no one trust me no one wants to listen to me.

i just miss u. i wish life is simpler than this.

its just another 19 days to go.

can i just sleep and wake up after 19 days? 

ya allah

im in pain. 

help me.

seriously. help me.

Disown

v disown [disˈoun]

to refuse to acknowledge as belonging to oneself to disown one's son.


Kernerman English Multilingual Dictionary © 2006-2010 K Dictionaries Ltd.

Kisah Seekor Burung

Taken from : ini fynn jamal cakap

beribu tahun dahulu,


nabi ibrahim alaihissalam dibakar kaumnya.



ketika api marak mahu menelan baginda,

semasa tidak ada daya apa2 bantuan dari siapa2,

seekor burung berulang-alik menyimbah air dengan harapan terpadam jua.



berulang alik--

dengan air dicedok dengan paruhnya.

itulah dibuatnya.

berkali2.



tingkahnya diperhati makhluk lain yang cuma mampu bertanya:

apalah guna kau berlelah2, berbolak-balik--

bila api yang menjilat ibrahim itu takkan langsung terluak walau sejentik.



tenang--

burung itu menyahut:

benar.

takkan langsung terluak walau sejentik.

tapi aku lebih gerun pada tuhan kerana dia akan bertanya;

apa yang telah aku lakukan--

bukan apakah hasil perlakuan aku itu nantinya.



:)



berhenti risaukan apa yang orang kata tentang tuhan yang serba jahat.

tuhan kita terpaling baik.

walau sezarah--

tetap dia kira.



*senyum*



maka--

hari ini--

apa perkara kecil-takkan-langsung-terluak-walau-sejentik kita?

6 YEARS

Finally engaged after 6 years ++