am at my week 33 of pregnancy and we just had long weekend due to Thaipusam public holiday.
This week we dint shop for baby cloth, just the basic weekly necessities and stocking up toiletries coz there 50% off all hair care and cosmetic at Guardian & Watson. I even got free premium hair brush from Dome for purchasing hair care during the weekend.
intro. we have 4 room in the house. 1 master, 1 small room for clothes, 1 medium room as library and 1 store room which is also medium size which I cant even remember what we kept inside it. yup we have 4 room in this house but we will only have 3 in our new house. so far from early this month i have been preparing master bedroom to welcome our newborn. clearing drawer so we can make room for her clothes and stuff and arranging changing table to prepare for maternity.
sat. start clearing the small room. rearranging the wardrobe, getting rid of clothes we dont want. Plan is to send it to h&m to get some discount voucher. 1 room done in half day time. we also wash the clothes we buy for her together with some recycle white onesies that belongs to her brother not long ago. mostly clothes for 0-3m baby since our doctor predict she will be born about the same size of tuah, 2.6kg - max 3kg.
sunday. we start with our library, we bought box for our beloved comics and books and notes for work that we still use. from 6 big box we almost use 4 box to pack all the reading material.
another 2 box will be for machine, gadgets, games and other stuff that we still need and use. The plan is to pack everything, sell all the rack and dispose all unwanted things. and turn this room to play room for Tuah and TJ since it is the nearest room to the kitchen, I can cook while watching them play in the room. room is half done. we still need to find buyer for the rack.
monday. we meet buyer for terrarium and say good bye to it. hamim went to gym while tuah and me play at baby gym. visited shima, chep and their 3 weeks old Laila at noon, then force fadh and azra to accompany us buy pampers as the nearest mall to shima's house. arrive home at 6 and start preparing dinner.
to do by end Feb - sell/giveaway the rack in the library. finish packing / throwing things in the library. move all 6 boxes to store room. the library have to be empty by end feb, the earlier the better before arrival of tj.
to do in 2 years time - clear of either by selling/throwing all the thing we kept in store which I cant remember what. surely we wont be needing if we cant even remember what is kan? we dont have store in the new house, so we need to minimize thing we will be bringing in. max number of box we will bring to our new house will be 10, including clothes, toys and kitchen stuff. so imagine how many things i need to get rid of?
summary. why the heck dint i start this earlier?? i clearly enjoy myself selling/ throwing stupid unwanted things which i dont even remember having.
work. i sound disappointed with work in my last post ( 2 months ago! haha ) but now the disappointment has lessen...by 1% ( haha im funny!) ok still same people same issue same complain from them buttt,, my superior has given me new task for 2019 to widen my scope and increase my skill.
So here I am in my month 8 and 9 of pregnancy expected to learn new things fast before I will be away again for 2 1/2 month for my maternity break - ok challenge accepted!! At least Im not stuck doing same thing for few years kan.
Syukur ada keja and cant wait for big B end of March!
life. we got news about hamim promotion at Q2 and which will only take effect only on dec. so we decided to survey house and he finally found his dream home in Cyberjaya with good deal! in fact we just got back from signing the S&P and we were pretty happy we finally got into this level after booking and cancelling previous project (coz we had doubt on the location and stuff).. with this house that we just purchased, we got parking side by side nearer to the lift straight to our unit on the ground floor! it's a new year blessing.
i have around 8 weeks to go before my edd 13/3. but i will start my leave early so i have already inform my superior at work that my last day in office will 28/2, so until that date, I will be busy preparing handover to my colleague and some to my intern which I need to train from scratch coz she never have work experience before.
did i mention that its a baby girl? yeah it's a girl and so far we have bought all the necessities to welcome our newborn . new car seat for both car - done! pink comotomo - done! girl sock & legging - done! few pairs of new clothes with a bit of girly color - done! we got few more weeks to go to wind shop and see what else we should buy. hamim wanted a carrier but i told him its not necessary coz I dont plan to eat out for the rest of the year after 2nd baby out, he just roll his eyes and walk away.
i think that's all for now kot. doakan rajin update blog for the rest of the year and safe delivery for my 2nd.
i did pray for rezeki yg tak disangka and yes i got it.
Times like these won't last forever, so don't stop me from holding him.
Tuah is 2 months old end August. On 27th to be exact. Da pandai senyum, pandai ketawa dan bangun sekali je malam hari untuk menyusu dan kembali tidur sampai Subuh.
Roslin pula dah back to work on 21st, sangat awal dari standard confinement leave. Does that mean I don't love my child? I'm on a mission and I'm determine to complete it. And I'm doing it for him. 1st week of work dah kena visit plant and have to be away for 2 nights. Is my act of leaving him for 2 nights means I dont love him? Can you really imagine having to leave your newborn and be away for 3 whole day!
There are soul out there acting amaze on my sacrifice of leaving my child mencari rezeki menampung hidup sendiri. but deep inside just waiting for time to shoot me in the head and accuse me of willingness to abandon him for something else.
Yes, I have gone back to work.
Yes, I send my baby to day care.
Yes, I make mistake, lots of them.
But that doesnt mean I dont love my child.
I can't afford to make the same mistake I have done before putting myself same level as trash.
I HAVE to care for myself first before I can love and care for him.
Therefore, I have to be strong.
Give me 5 years I'll be better.
I know when I created this space, I wanted it for only happy thoughts to enter.
But who am I kidding? You and I both know why I'm writing here.
I wish I have someone I can pour my heart out to. For now, it's just here and sing-a-long session while driving to work.