Hari ni hari ke 14 Tuah lahir. Tuah cahaya mata yang aku tak sangka aku akan ada.
Tak pernah mampu bayangkan diri sendiri adalah seorang mak, yang mampu melahirkan.
Dan aku still tak tahu secukup mana baru aku dapat zahirkan rasa bersyukur. Adakah dengan harta benda aku yang tak seberapa ni, sebab sejujurnya aku memang menumpang rezeki si Tuah sepanjang 9 bulan mengandung. atau dengan perbuatan dan perasaan yg sebenarnya aku pun tak tak tahu nak buat macam mana.
Masih lagi adjusting life dengan Tuah di sisi. Dengan tidur malam berjaga, jadual pam susu,jaga diri pantang makanan, berurut, stokin, sarung kepala, luka jahitan, manusia yang tiba2 concern perihal keselesaan aku, dan byk lagi.
Jujurnya aku sangat strugle walaupun ada helper yg datang separuh hari.
Hari ini, saat anak masuk 14 hari di waktu sebelum maghrib, aku diuji dengan aku hidangan kata2 jahat yg sebenarnya dah biasa dengar tapi tak sangka aku ni dah bergelar mak pun kene telan lagi.
Post yang paling last ialah post mid May dimana konon Roslin heartbreak sesangat (memang pun).
Masa tu 32 weeks ada angan nak update weekly on first pregnancy memandangkan dah kene jumpa doctor bi-weekly / weekly on June, which was also bulan Ramadhan ( sbb tu dia penuh rahmat, gittuh..) Why does it not happen? ...i forgot why.
Mood was a bit okay when June start, got to spend time with my friends (see my IG its not private) , doa lebih sikit walaupun melalak kat sejadah merayu takut bersalin tapi kau dah 9 bulan pun (bila kau nak insaf ni), I did a lil bit of forgiving and at the same time I forgive myself too, still able to drive alone to KLCC and Pulze tgk wayang and bit shopping. Hamim start working from home on week 37 ( a week before raya ) not that I need him doing stuff at home tapi I feel secure when he is around konon2 feeling week 37 ni anytime boleh deliver.
My EDD was supposed to be early July to be exact on the 5th. Tapi deep inside I was hoping for June baby and at one point on June itself I dont mind pun kalau baby nak keluar before raya which fall on 25th June this year, which is also fall on week 38 of my pregnancy.
So here is the timeline so I can remember later later later in life.
Week 34 - Jumpa Kamaljit on Sat May 27th ( 1st day puasa ) Baby is well, everything is ok but baby weight only at week 32 ( less 100++gram than the ideal weight) Dr said still got plenty of time. So I decided to not puasa until baby's weight on track with pregnancy week. Baby head down and masuk bit in the laluan. My weight did not increase.
Week 36 - Jumpa Dr Hamidah of Hospital Putrajaya on June 10th. I took FPP under her coz this is the nearest hospital and I read good review about the service and the doctor. Dr Hamidah was also Dr Kamaljit junior when they were studying. Baby head down but belum masuk laluan sepenuhnya. I asked bila rasanya bersalin (this week dah mmg fikir bersalin before raya pun takpe) and she said 'next week kalau nak bersalin dah boleh dah' and 'if rasa sakit, water break or darah head to dewan bersalin terus'. She gave me another appointment date 29th June which is our 1st anniversary ( great! vagina examination as anniversary gift lol)
Week 37 - Appointment with Dr Kamaljit on June 17th. Baby weight has increase but still behind 1 week ( 2.4kg ++ ). Mummy need to eat eat eat. And yes, I still tak puasa and been eating alot! My weight remain the same from week 34.
Week 38 - Lagi appoinment with Dr Kamaljit on 24th June ( Sat 1 day before raya ). My weight remain the same, baby weight on track at 2.58kg ( yes on the last day of puasa baru on track which means not a single day aku puasa this year ) Baby fully in laluan but still dongak so Dr did not do any VE for me that day haha. Baby is healthy everything is ok and her remark before I left, 'dont worry can still raya 2/3 days but dont go far okayyyy....' to hamim Dr said ' I wont be seeing you for this round anymore so call us when your wife deliver.
25th June - Raya Day 1.
Selamat Hari Raya. Ate rendang, kuah lodeh roti jala with kari kambing, laksa, mee sup, nasi dagang and ketupat. Braxton Hicks contraction start during asar and kat rumah org semasa gi beraya. Hamim panicked like hell.
26th June - Raya Day 2
Stay at home sampai petang and head to Sendayan beraya after maghrib. Ate bihun goreng, ketupat with kuah kacang and rendang later nasi beriyani, ayam merah and rendang daging ( both lauk pedas bit) braxton hicks contraction after ate beriyani so head home to cyberjaya at and arrive around 12.30 straught to bed with full tummy.
27th June - Raya Day 3
I felt contraction at 6 am, head to labor room at 4pm and deliver a cute baby boy weight 2.58kg at 6.37pm without epidural (read my next next post then you will understand why I need to bold this statement)