2012

*this was written on mid Jan*

major major event list :

1. Jan - Happy New Year! date decided!
2. Big B! on Feb but cant use.
3. Merisik & Hamim's bday at the place where i grew up. same house i celebrated my birthday when i was still a lil girl. so sweet rite. haha
4. April - the month of my epic Engagement to Hamim. Preparation was shitty and I was really not in the mood. I'm so sad because Im supposed to be happy but I was not.
5. went to the 5th MUA (family friend)  on May for make up test, where I decide not to proceed with make up and took the pelamin, makan beradab and house deco instead. very very disappointing. Hamim start borang nikah process which took him only around 2 weeks. proud proud. My side I just gave the atok completed form and he bring me to meet tok imam the one who gonna nikahkan us. He open for Q&A which I think he regret later after coz I asked a lot of question.
6. Got married to Hamim. Nikah on 29th June and reception on 30th.
7. Honeymoon in DaNang early July :) came back the next weekend and straight for another kenduri which i hate the most incident after that. F!
8. August the Ramadhan. 2 weeks before Raya. Stuff I don't think I'm able to forgive happened. People can call me names and gossip abt me all they want. But not to my husband! God really tested me that time and I think I did well. Some people can really be so selfish just to get what they want. And I am so proud of my self that I can tolerate this. But remember, I wont be the same. I will never be the same. oh on happier note, Hamim bought baby Blade. its just a 250 but it is still something that he can call his own.
9. Hamim start Petronas project. This project will end this month but I think they will extend Hamim til Feb. no leave no MC so far. I think he's quite proud of himself.
10. Oct - cant really remember what happened this time.
11. Nov forced to celebrate birthday of ppl that no longer matter to me. But I think they cant help it. Not their decision. Just reminder to own self not to get too excited, cause in the end no one is gonna really take into consideration the good stuff that you do. Something happened at work, another reminder to myself not to get to excited and trust ppl you don't really know. Cause in the end, they are not gonna appreciate you. So I think I know where I stand and what my IPF will result in. Total waste of time for freakin 8 month.
12. Dec - Got demotivated a bit. Does not really care what happened around me and keep doing my work. Hate everyday of it. End of month we went to visit Ki. he's not well. so we went and stayed 1 nite. Got up really early the next day. Start journey to KL as early as 6 coz Hamim need to be in Dayabumi at 9 on Sunday. 

So that's pretty much what happened in 2012. I am a new person now. I love myself more than I did before because I know no one will care about me except for my own self. ( and Hamim of course , TQ Mim )